Many have said that death could never hit home close to them. Many have said that they would live a long life together as husband & wife, mother & child, father & child, or sister & brother. Yet many have never felt the pain of specifically, a widow or a widower unless they have walked in their shoes. I never thought that it could happen to me so very soon! What was the best time of my life (besides salvation from the Lord) turned out to be the worse time of my life. My husband, my soul mate, my prayer partner, and my best friend passed away on March 16, 2020 unexpectedly and suddenly from heart failure. From that day, my whole life changed instantly! Yes, it was unbearable, it was emotionally overwhelming, tears flowing heavily to the point where I had to come up for air many times in my early stages of bereavement. I thought I was going to literally lose my breathing, gasping for air because I had lost half of my heart. As time progressed after two – three months of heavy stages of grieving, the Lord began to really deal with me to let me know that this happened not by mistake but by his will. Sometimes we pray for God’s healing upon an individual but in reality sometimes, their healing comes on the other side and God has a better will for them to his use.  Before the most painful day of my life, as I look back God was preparing the both of us for that day of his transition. Sometimes as you look and think back, you see the signs, you see the more spending time with each other, you see the more closeness with an individual that was even greater than your wedding day. You see all of the signs and yet every day you could be getting prepared for that specific day.  Several have said to me that when things like this happen so suddenly and unexpectedly to an individual regarding such a good person in your life; it is truly a sign that there is a special anointing, a special gift, a special purpose in your life that is unique from others. It is a sign that manifests in your life to let you know that you are being prepared for, polished for, and established for greater from the Lord. Something unique and different that no one has ever done! So as the Lord began to show me night after night, day after day, morning after morning, I could not help myself but to write everything down that was being revealed and manifested to me. In addition to this, there were so many other signs of confirmation not just from the Lord but in other ways. I want to encourage all widows and widowers; not just to them, but those who have been wounded & weary, and having unexpected traumas in their lives. Never stop defining or knowing your purpose in life. You have still have a seed in you that needs to grow and come to fruition. But remember that seed has to go through the dirt and the rain in order to blossom into what it was designed to become. If you were equipped for this type of warfare, you can WIN it; no matter what type of warfare it is. It's time to restore, renew, and regain the YOU! Your story is not over! You have to still live your life again! Don't Quit! Be Encouraged! You may not see it right now, but the sun will shine after while.